insomnia153

your eyes tell the stories...

2004-09-03T03:22:22Z

hey ya'll, just got back from the football game. great time! Mike knows i like him and i think he is cool with it. which is pretty darn cool. adam and his chicka kissed! lol i can't even tell you how cute that was. umm dani totally ditched ashley and I, but it's all good. ashley gave me a ride home and she is just a total sweetheart. i showed her my kittens, too! how fun! by the way, my kittens are so damn cute. going camping this weekend, i'll write ya'll upon my return! just an update-Love always
ME!
i still love ya dani, so dont think i'm like...pissed or anything

California here we come...

2004-08-24T06:47:11Z

Right back where we started from
i'm too tired...need to sleep...just wanted to say "hello." i talked to joe akers today. that kid is freakin funny! im pissed. i hung out with dani, josh, BMcG, brett, and ASA. fun stuff, still freakin pissed. well, more like sad in an angry way. i have decided to tell the whole world EXACTLY what i am thinking; I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH .............................................
..............................................................................................................................................................Frankie Fricken Sinatra. welll not really, but i guess we could pretend i was. battle of the bands tomorrow, last day of summer. :-( so depressing, that's okay. love you all gnight

umm yeah

2004-08-22T04:18:31Z

golly gee so much has happened since the last time i wrote in this fabulous journal i've got here. i fricken went to warped tour!! which was so so fun. i am already makin plans for next year. i also watched glorious cauze at the local...they totally rocked out. so proud of those guys...luv luv. i also hung out at dani's so fricken much and enjoyed every minute-oh too fun girly! except when i was sick, that sucked. oh oh and i talked to dustin kentalla who rocks my socks. he is really cool-come see his sow saturday at common grounds if you love college boys. whoo hoo.

there...now you're caught up a wee bit. by the way folks...my mom and step-dad have agreed to sell the house. so, it looks like i'm really moving. ahhh too much drama. ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE COMING WITH ME! lol i already told my mom that, so guys...start fricken packing. i'm gonna go now, i'll hit you up with more details for sure later if you'd care to have them. LOVE LOVE

SCORE! go warped tour...i heart sugarcult and frank sinatra.

I'm weak...it's true. 'cause i'm afraid to know the answer...

2004-08-11T02:08:58Z

i haven't writing in here lately. mostly bc the stuff that has been happening isn't "stuff" i wan't to share with the world...deal with it

so, on the flip side...i went to ny about a week ago and had a TOTALLY KICK ARse time. i got to see my padre and my awesome big sis, Tanya. i finally met her hubby lane-very cute by the way, and i saw the rest of my new york family. they're all so awesome, how could i not have fun?

i went to the local for the first time last saturday with dani and mark. it was fun i'm glad i went. DBR was awesome and im totally bummed that they are breakin up :-( sunday-cousin david and uncle dennis flew in from ny!

cousin david stayed the night last night. we talked to some of my "friends" online and talked about some stuff; music, friends, school, etc. he has changed so much. i'm draggin him to the local saturday to watch the boys play. zeta is coming, too AND I THINK...dani, hopefully. markers better be there grr

talking to jesse and leah right now. BAD NEWS: school starts in about 2 weeks :-( so sad. POSSIBLe good news: i think i'm over him (yay again for the pronoun game)! hehe im gone now ROCK ON WELCHFEST!!!!! br there feb. 12th
MUch loVe
PS HOPEFULLY ILL SEE YOU AT WARPED TOUR BLEEE-ACHES

Grease...it's the word

2004-07-22T04:51:06Z

"tears...on my pillow. Pain in my heart...caused by you...you-oooooo-oh--oooo" that's from a song in grease that was playing when i began this journal. just thought i'd let you in on it...

dani girl stayed the night last night-so fun. we stayed up watching this creep ass movie. RULES OF ATTRACTION...don't ever watch it, really nasty. by the time it was over, it was almost 4:30 in the morning. dani and i were shocked at the time, so we started talking again about..life lol we talk so much. it's awesome.
after sitting around the house ALL day...dani and i felt awfully lazy. so, we decided to go back to her casa and work out. that was so fun! we swam for about 10 seconds bc this wicked storm was brewing. SOOO SCARY!! i met her brother(s). technically i only met one, but two were at her house. i think his name was Adam-pretty cool kid. he and dani were so funny. they fight over silly things and they practically beat each other. i loved it lol
anyway, im home now talkin to taylor, mark, dani, my brother and...idk lol dani just headed to bed, but before that she and i decided we were done with boys. score! taylor and i talked about corey, and mosquitos, and her wasp sting, and how she can cry with corey all the time..., and school. ahh school. i do not wanna go back ahh. okay im done i really dont feel like writing anymore. not that you care. adieu

Idle hands are the Devil's Playground

2004-07-18T02:55:43Z

don't be lazy...use your hands

hmm it's been awhile since i last wrote in this FABULOUS journal i have here. since then, i saw spider man 2 with dani and jeffy, got yelled at by nick, talked to caleb about warped tour, and went tanning. oh and i talked to asa yay! bad idea to go tanning for 12 minutes when you haven't gone in a while. that's right, I burnt my a$$ (along with a few other places).
anyway, caleb if you're reading this either call me or check for me online (it's about the warped tour thang). alright i'm done here really. <3 me

...you can't fool me

2004-07-14T01:20:33Z

today i woke up at about 3. crazy time-i feel like the day has just started and now it's almost over. this can only mean one thing; i, my friend, will be up once again 'til some crazy hour in the morning.
zeta, brian, and nevaeh stopped by today and brought along their cats. once i finally woke up, took a shower, got dressed and the whole ordeal, we sat on the deck and talked. somehow i became the center of attention and apparently, my brother thinks i'm a naughty little girl. he insists that i am "closer than we think" to having sex HAHA that's awesome and entirely not true, but i thought it was funny.
we talked a lot about my trip to NY that i'm taking in a couple weeks. i'm not sure if i'm excited bc i have some stuff i have to deal with once i get there-long story. on top of all that, i really miss asa lol i'm such a loser.
alright, enough writing for me. later lovers hehe

I am so awake

2004-07-11T05:53:05Z

Maybe be it's love, but it's like you said...Love is like a role that we play.

alright...1:44 am and i am wide-awake as freakin usual. i think it is because i always have too much on my mind. talking to mark right now-fun stuff. he is talking dirty to some chick on the internet who thinks he is sexy. talk about a real ladies man hehe
heres the detour [1:46 AM]: she said she was a biter
heres the detour [1:46 AM]: but yea
heres the detour [1:46 AM]: when she kisses, she bites
i went to Jamas today to watch Asking Wednesday. i think it is crazy that i used to hang out with those guys all the time. i feel as if they are complete strangers now. except for maybe willy, but only bc he is still so nice. i really wanted to see asa today, so i'm kinda bummed that i didn't get to. err he is gonna be leaving again soon...that sucks. thank god for caleb and meghan they seriously keep me in one piece lol i love the two of them! alright i'm gonna try to sleep-it seems like i only sleep better after talking to him (that's right...him. i'm playing the pronoun game).LOVE YOU ALL much love :-*

i can't sleep :-(

2004-07-09T06:42:17Z

it's 2 am; i have been listening to the Dashboard CD for what seems like hours. now...i am listening to the Glorious Cauze CD which, in my opinion, is awesome. the boys (especially the kick a$$ drummer) are so devoted to the band and for that, i think they deserve major props. wow that sounded so ghetto. but, what can i say? i'm a gansta.
i had the weirdest feeling earlier. i was trying to fall asleep, knowing he wasn't gonna call, and i kept feeling like i wouldn't be here tomorrow. i kept thinking "i won't be able to be angry with him tomorrow. i won't be able to thank caleb for making me feel so much better. i won't be able to tell meghan what a good friend she is. i won't be able to tell my mom how grateful i am for everything, and i won't be able to tell him how silly i felt for being angry (when everyone knows i like him too much to be angry with him anyway)." it really upset me and kinda changed my views on everything. i'm not sure how long this feeling will last, but i know that right now i feel like a completely different person.
my prince charming has officially turned back into a toad. how it happened i have no idea, but it happened and i feel really terrible. i made such a completely fool of myself! ahhh sorry willy for using you as a pillow back there, i should'nt have tried to bring you down with me kid. lol anyway i think i need to thank some people now...
Meghan (not that you'll ever read this)-i love you girl! i can't even tell you how beautiful you are inside and out. you keep me in line and i thank you for that!!! lol tear tear ;-(
Caleb-you must be truly the coolest guy i have had the honor of meeting. i am so happy that you and meghan have each other. i really hope everything works for you bc i can't stress to you how much i appreciate your pep talks. lol honestly, you make me feel so much better.
jeffy-although we don't talk much now, there was a time when you were always there for me... always there, even when i didn't need ya jk i know you probably don't care much for me now, but i will always be grateful to you for looking out for me; no matter how mean you can be.
asa-thanks for giving me a reason to smile! lol you're awesome and so so fun. i really do hope you find whatever it is you're looking for. luv ya